June is Migraine Awareness Month. When I learned that, I decided to write a little about my experiences with them.
When I first began suffering from migraines, I didn’t even realize what was happening. My earliest memories of them come from when I was about twelve years old. My head would begin to ache and light hurt my eyes. Most of the time, I would just muddle through the rest of the day, feeling tired and having difficulty focusing. A few times, I went down to the nurse’s office to lie down for a while. I wasn’t the sort of kid who liked going home from school – no matter the reason – so when she’d ask if I wanted my parents called, I would say no, take a nap and then return to classes.
That was my life through the end of high school – getting headaches and seldom complaining about them, merely muddling through. I started noticing that certain things caused them: hormones, getting too much sun, changes in the weather, extreme heat… I began wearing sunglasses and ballcaps to shade my face when I was outside. That helped tremendously. I stayed in air conditioning as much as I could. That also helped, but I still didn’t know that I was suffering from migraines.
By the time I stated college, I was beginning to suspect that I was getting migraines. My mother had them, so it wasn’t inconceivable. However, mine weren’t like hers… I never had the nausea that I’d always heard being a symptom. (My mother nearly always does with hers.) However, I did research and I saw other symptoms that I did have: a dull ache in my head that would throb, sensitivity to light and sound, being tired and having difficulty focusing, visual disturbances… It fit, but I didn’t get it officially diagnosed. What I did do was begin taking OTC pain killers when I felt the headache coming or saw my little flashing star (which is my aura).
Around this time, I also found a new trigger: Red 40. It was, very likely, less of a new trigger and more something that I’d finally recognized as having been a trigger after many years. Once I cut Red 40 out of my diet, the number of days that I suffered dropped dramatically.
There came a day one winter when I slipped and fell on ice. I hit my head and ended up in the emergency room with a mild concussion. They let me go home that day and I had a follow-up where I was shown to be fine. However, for a few years after that, I had a new symptom that scared me enough to send me to the doctor: I’d get vertigo and numbness on the roof of my mouth preceding a migraine. At this point, I finally described my symptoms – most of which I’d been suffering from for just over fifteen years by that point – to a doctor and got my diagnosis. (I also had a brain scan just to make sure there was nothing more serious going on.)
That was nearly a dozen years ago now. It’s been a journey to figure out exactly what triggers my migraines and the best way to deal with those things. Some things, like food triggers or dehydration, I can avoid simply by watching what I eat and drink. Other things, like hormones or weather changes, I can’t do very much about. However, I can track them and have warning ahead that I’m primed for a migraine.
One thing I’ve had to deal with, particularly since becoming an adult and joining the workforce, is the idea that migraines are severe headaches. In reality, they are so much more than that. My OTC medicine takes care of the pain, but it doesn’t take care of certain other symptoms. I’m still tired when I’ve had a migraine – long after the pain has stopped. I still have trouble focusing in the hours after I’ve had a migraine. Those things go away, with time. However, getting people to understand that it’s not just the pain isn’t always easy. The other thing that’s difficult at times is the assumption by some that, since I’ve taken medicine the pain will automatically go away. While that’s often the case (thank God), it’s not always so. Sometimes, it’s as if I took the medicine too late and I just have to wait – take another dose or two – and relax.
I have heard of some people being unable to function with migraines or having difficulty maintaining a job, because of frequent absences. I thank God that’s not my story. My pain is, generally, manageable. However, migraines are so much more than just a throbbing pain in my head. They really are something that effects my entire body and, as a result, can influence every aspect of my life.